March 15, 2011

-post card- and then the tears came



Holidays and the kids birthdays can be terribly difficult since their deaths.

Surprisingly enough on my birthday this Sunday I found myself struggling a bit,  here's why.

This is one of the few days when I am truly the center of attention, not the attention giver and thats a hard role for me.

We had a nice dinner out, my mom, my husband, my son-in-law and daughter, the boys and my son. I sat and watched all of the people I love gathered around me and I am reminded of all that I have in my life and I am grateful.  At times like this however I can't help but see the empty seats at the table in my mind and feel their absence in my heart.

 Since the accident I tend to get a bit emotional about these things, here is what my sons card said.....


I love you as a Mom
the wonderful woman
who has done more for me 
than any other person in the world.

I love you as my friend,
someone who understands me, 
takes time to listen, 
 and truly cares about
 how I'm doing.

I love what you made me-
a happy child,
a grateful adult,
and someone who will always
look up to you.

Happy Birthday


and then the tears came.

2 comments:

  1. We sort of passed my birthday without much recognition this year, until a couple days later. Then we all went out to eat. It was easier for me that way, somehow. But even then, I thought the whole time about the last time we were at that restaurant and how impressed Mattias had been with the man cooking right at our table.

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  2. I so enjoy the stories you tell about Tiggy, he sounds so adorable.
    Talking about mine has always been a struggle,thinking about them has always been so much easier for me.

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