July 4, 2011

five years since their deaths

Life; it goes on around my husband and I these past few days but the numbness is back a bit. Five years have passed since the kids died; gone in a blink of an eye.

It seems like so long ago sometimes and then on other days it seems like yesterday. My family in and out of the house; the immediate family that is and some close friends. Cards and e-mails from the usual friends, the ones that never forget to remember the kids passing or our family. And a few lovely e-mails from a few new blogger friends, there are no words. Food and drink have passed our lips, pictures of the kids, stories shared of good times when they were still with us.

Who knows better then us that life goes on and although we share our own  little bit  ton of misery my husband and I, we gain comfort in having our family here with us, we gain comfort in the kind words expressed by family, friend and friendly bloggers alike.

“For then you shall forget your misery, or recall it like waters that have ebbed away. (Job 11:16).”

I had considered briefly putting pictures of  Gretchen and Eric but I thought instead of putting pictures of the kids I'd would honor them by showing you how we their family and a few friends are honoring life after their death by living it. You can see a picture of my children who died in 2006 by clicking here if you'd like picture..

This is not something easy for Bill or me especially when anniversaries and holiday's come around as you can well imagine so you will not see us in any of the pictures.

left Jess, Adam, Emmanuel, Gerard, Alexandra
front Xavier 

left Matt, Mary & Gonjoe

Sydney pushing Matt in the pool

my sister in law Denise and  niece Alex

my grandson Xavier

left my hubby's ex Cathy, our daughter Heather, niece Alex, grandson Emmanuel

Jess with super balance, Gerard and my grandson Adam

kids in the den playing with video games

my friend Susan

my brother Gerard


  1. Jen

    My prayers are with you and your husband. It is never easy as you know we just past 4 years in June.
    I hope that you have your family there to share in your day and the love of your memories good and sad.

    Lori and I have been working all day here in SC so we can hopefully be able to pay our bills at the end of the month so we have had a hard work day. We are happy you and yours get to celebrate.


    Jim Dorchak

  2. Thanks Jim,
    I know we follow each other with our anniversary dates; difficult times for each of our families come summer.

    Thanks for the prayers Jim as always your support is a comfort.

  3. God bless and keep you dear friend. I am with you in heart.

  4. Janna this I know; thanks.
    Comments working again! yey!

  5. God bless you Jen -- I cannot imagine the pain you are going through. I am praying for you and your family and am inspired by your courage. What a beautiful tribute to your children -- celebrating life in their memory. Your love for them shines through in all you write. Hang in there, and I pray that God will lift you up, hold you close, and comfort you in your sadness.

    Blessings, Jenn (Misadventures in Motherhood)

  6. Thanks Jenn for your prayers and the lovely comment both are much appreciated.


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