June 3, 2011

waiting for the other shoe

This week's prompt focused on character development. We asked you to tell us what your character - or you -wants. It's a way to get to know your character or yourself better.

Red Writing Hood

I have a confession to make; I wasn't the greatest student when I was in school. The thing I disliked most about school was reading. When completing school I went right to work and did not attend college. 

I married early at the age of 22 and started a family right away. It wasn't until I had my children that I learned the how purely divine it could be to immerse myself in good novel. How could I have not realized earlier how truly wonderful reading was? Each book I read was like a mini vacation a learning experience and with that realization I was hooked. I then began ingesting books sometimes as many as two or more a week. 

Until the accident that is. Did you ever get the feeling like you're waiting for the other shoe to drop? That feeling was so intense after my son and daughter died in the accident that I couldn't function for quite a long time.

The worst of that has abated but my concentration is still affected. It's been almost five years now and I'm fully functional except for one thing that has still not returned; my concentration. I cannot concentrate long enough to read a novel from cover to cover. I'd loved to sink my teeth into a good book, and I miss that so much. Oh how I wish I could.


  1. I pray you will soon be able to concentrate enough to get back to reading a novel all the way through. I can not imagine how you must feel or what you have been through but I hope you receive all the blessings you deserve and want.

  2. Thanks Julie I miss it a lot. I just thought after all this time it would have come back and it. Oh well; I guess i just have to be more patient. Just think I'll have tons of books to pick from when the time comes! :)

  3. This post hurts my heart. Sending much love to you.

  4. It's hard to let yourself become part of someone else's fantasy when the sharp edges of your reality keep nudging you out. I have to believe that those sharp edges wear down eventually, although probably not fast enough.

    Thank you for sharing this!

  5. NC Narrator,
    You have put to words what I have struggled with for so long but couldn't find the words for and done it perfectly. Beautiful words for such a difficult reality, thank you for that.


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